I was thinking about you today. I would look at a stack of papers on my desk and a little voice would sound in my head, ” What about fortycakes?” I tried to ignore it or push it to the side, but it didn’t work. The thoughts kept creeping in and I couldn’t handle it anymore.
The day was very blah to begin with. Nothing exciting on the to-do list, a blah and un-inspiring performance review, and even a blah and slightly off-tasting lunch. Little blog, I know we all have days like this –but mine are coming more and more regularly. I begin to daydream about quitting my job and going off and pursuing something more romantic, like the Modern Domestic (you know, that other blog I spend so much time with). Even then, I have problems with focus….do I want to write? cook? write about cooking? write about art? write about travel? or saving the environment? I can’t narrow it down. I do realize that I like to write. I like to research. I like to know a little bit about a lot of different things.
I like to write.
But how do I even begin? That is where you come in–little blog. Not only have you gotten me in the kitchen researching the best recipes for vanilla cupcakes, making food that I won’t even attempt to eat and learning special little chef tricks; you have gotten me to write about these adventures. They say the best way to become a writer is to write, right? I have decided, little blog, that I need you more than you need me. Your stats have actually been doing quite well without new posts and you have even received a few comments. I, on the other hand, have resorted to cooking my family, “Indian Food From A Box”, and buying a pie from Whole Foods. All the while wondering what was missing in my life…and now I know. I missed you, dear blog. I missed your heart-to-keyboard discussions, and your non-judging looks when I sampled another cookie. I missed your spell check and your photo editing capabilities……I was wrong to have left you for so long and I apologize. I want you back and I will never leave you again (at least not without good reason).
Please take me back. I will make you something extra special……